Words

Old emails swim
Behind leaky eyes
Ghosts of who we were
And may never be again


I loved you with wild abandon
Naive and free
Hopeful
Stupidly


My voice constricts now
I still smile
Though you'll never see 
You don't want to


This polite distance
This strained ache
I knew that befriending you would challenge
Though loving you is fatal


I still look for love
I peer from face to face
Pale comparisons
Empty shells


Or maybe I'm the shell?
The fraud?
The one with nothing left to give?
Hope burns true


I'll find love one day
It won't be with you
But I'll find it
I'll never give up...